There is something about this movie/book that puts everything into focus for me and calms my mind. After the past few days where my whole reason for moving out here came tumbling down around me in ruins, I’ve been in a funk. A SERIOUS one. If interning with them wasn’t the reason for moving here then what was? I have NEVER been a patient person…I really need to work on it…and I know that things don’t happen on MY TIME but on His…and there IS a reason that I needed to be in Los Angeles RIGHT NOW. I just don’t know what it is yet and really don’t have any idea where it’s going to come from.
Anyway…being in the funk I’ve been in, I grabbed my book and started reading again, highlighting everything that sticks out to me (which is basically the entire book) and making lists in the margins of everything I want to do in my life. Doing so got me thinking…I’ve already been able to cross off a LOT on my list. The biggest one so far being moving to Los Angeles. Regardless of what brought me out here in the first place—I took the first step. I took care of the hard part…packed up my life into my 2-door civic and drove across the country, leaving everything that was “comfortable” behind in Orlando. I hate feeling like I have the past few days and after watching the movie I’ve decided I’m not going to feel that way anymore. There IS something in the works for me and I’m giving it over to Him now to handle. Worrying doesn’t get you anywhere but feeling tired, stressed out, and pulling away from people just because it’s easier to do than to actually TALK about what’s wrong.
That being said…I’m going to enjoy the opportunity I’ve been given. I’ve got time on my hands right now that I haven’t had in a while since I’m not working yet so why not explore my new surroundings and get settled into my new home?
I don’t know what is it about this book/her words…maybe its the fact that when the movie came out I went and saw it by myself and was completely comfortable with the fact that I was in a packed theatre, alone, and felt COMPLETELY liberated by doing so. Whatever the case, I’m glad I thought to put the book in a box and haul it out here with me…it’s a good reminder for me when I need a kick in the ass.